When I was fighting whether to stay or to leave, I was also listening to this song.
It's from Moana (ita: Oceania), Disney.
I was singing it today.
This girl was fighting too, between the urge to adapt and the need to be herself, following her feelings.

And that reminded me again of those talks.
Those talks that ended with the same conclusion: or you adapt, or you can't live here.
The talks were very clear and stated that I should adapt, 
like if it was not a big deal after all.

Ater years, I still don't agree with those words.
I can't be what I am not.
And I am not keen on compromising. 

And you don't dare tell me how I should be.

From my experience there, I then learned that I don't have this skill and I don't want it.

And most of all, I can't trust those who make large use of this beautiful skill.



I am wrong? Ok, then I am wrong. 



Nobody asked for your opinion anyway.

Però tutti paiono felici,qui non cambiano mai niente, penso ti ci abituerai.But everybody looks happy here, they never change anything, I think that you'll get used to it.
でもここは皆が幸せそうだ、何も変えたりはしないし、いつか慣れていくと思うよ。

Hanno quei bei volti sorridenti, sono sempre contenti ed appartengo a loro ormai.
They have those nice smiling faces, they are always happy and I belong to them now.
皆が笑顔でいつも満足してる。私はもはや彼等に属してしまってるね。

Posso comandare, lo dimostrerò, mi saprò adattare se mi impegnerò,I can command, I will prove it, I will be able to adapt if I work hard,
良いリーダーになれることを認めるぞ、頑張ったらちゃんと順応できる

Ma la voce dentro che grida "NO" cresce forte in me!
But that voice inside screaming "NO" grows stronger in me!
だけど私の中のその声がますます大きく「ダメ」だと言うんだ！